Thursday, June 22, 2017

(In)fertility Friday

I've got news...and it's good! Dr. Garcia got my genetic test back on the fetus and everything came back perfectly normal. So it was not a partial molar pregnancy! That means no waiting for another 6 months and no chance of having abnormal cells (possibly cancer) left in my uterus because it wasn't there to begin with. I do still have to get my HCG blood levels down to 5 or less and we are making our way slowly but surely. 2 Weeks ago I was 123, last week I was 40, and yesterday I was 15 so hopefully be the time I do my next one it will be all the way down. Usually when you are close to zero you get your period so yea that will be fun! (insert sarcasm) We are actually going on vacation to Cashiers, NC on Sunday for the week so hopefully it waits until after that to come! :)

So all systems are a go for an August 24th transfer day. That's my Mom's birthday so it's a good day to begin with. :) The birth control will start again in July and then we are back to the shots towards the end of July. I will be gone next week so I won't do a post but after that I should be back in business with my Infertility Fridays as I will have stuff to post again. Let Round 3 begin! Xoxo

This was my journal entry from this exact day last year in my Jesus Calling devotion. Crazy to think of how much has happened over the past year. Lots of ups and downs, but more spiritual growth then I could have imagined one year ago so for that I am thankful! 1 year later and writing the same thing today. As I start my IVF journey...

Sunday, June 11, 2017

The Infertility Saga Continues

Sorry I didn't do a post on Friday. To be honest I am kind of in a limbo and didn't know what to say. So I will fill you in on where we are right now. I was hoping to go to my 2 week follow up appointment, hear the doctor say all looks well, and let you all know that I am scheduled to do another Frozen Transfer in late August. Well it didn't exactly go like that. 

Dr. Garcia said the tissue results came back and I "could possibly but I am really not sure, it's like 50/50 chance" that I may have had a partial molar pregnancy. LOL I said umm ok what's that? He explained a complete molar pregnancy as a group of abnormal cells that form and your body thinks you are pregnant, but you are really not. Through ultrasound you can see there is no fetus and you do a D&C. Essentially the cells could be a form of cancer. A partial molar is where there is a baby, but the placenta has abnormal cells which leads to issues with the baby which causes it to die. The results came back possible for a partial molar but it is inconclusive. He told me that he wants to wait till I get the genetic results back on the tissues. If they are perfectly normal it was not a partial molar pregnancy. If there was genetic issues then he thinks it could have been a partial. 

So I asked what are the chances of it happening again, he said about 1% so I thought ok lets move on and press our luck. He then proceeded to tell me that if it was a partial molar pregnancy you have to wait a minimum of 6 months before getting pregnant again. If some abnormal cells were left embedded in your uterus and they came out a few months later while pregnant it could lead to another D&C whether the baby was healthy or not. So he said DO NOT get pregnant. So like I said I am in Limbo. All could be well and we could be doing an FET in August or all may be pushed another 1/2 year out. It all depends on my genetic results which should be back in a week or 2. 

In the meantime he wants me to do weekly blood draws to make sure my HCG levels are dropping back to zero. This is the pregnancy hormone and if it doesn't drop it could mean it was a partial molar and there are still abnormal cells in there. I was at 123 on Wednesday which I am not sure if thats good or bad. I'll have a better idea after this weeks draw to see how quickly things are dropping. 

So woohoo the craziness continues. I said to Garcia "sheesh just add it to the list of crap I have" and he laughed and said you are definitely complicated LOL.  So I am taking this as a way that God can tell me what to do. If he doesn't think its right to do it again in August, then he will tell me it was a partial molar and I need to wait 6 months. If all comes back good, he is okay with August to try again. I only have 2 eggs left so this will be my last FET whenever it happens. Just trying to be at peace with it all and not be my usual controlling self. And in the meantime I am going to vacation my heart out bc I was putting off some trips I wanted to do because of being pregnant. Looking into a cruise now with the fam this fall and skiing with the McLaughlins in the winter. Finding the joy in the present. And honestly like I told my sister. After all this I wish I could just say well I am good with just my 2 beautiful girls lets quit trying. But I know deep down I would regret not giving it one more shot. I just feel like we are meant to have 1 more child. Just waiting for God to grant the desires of my heart. Hopefully I didn't confuse you guys too much with what's going on and I will do another post when I know more. I will leave you with the verse I saw on pinterest and Loved! So true and a great reminder of our true purpose on Earth. To fulfill his will and have eternal life in Heaven. XOXO

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Disney Girls Summer Getaway

Last week we went to Disney for a girls only trip from Tuesday through Thursday. We went to Epcot on Tuesday and Magic Kingdom on Wednesday and headed home on Thursday. Blakely really enjoyed Disney this trip. She loved meeting all the princesses and characters. We stayed at one of the Disney resorts which was awesome. We hopped on the bus in the mornings, came home to nap and swim and then headed back to the parks to do more rides and watch the fireworks. Definitely the way to do it so we aren't having meltdowns all day long. 
Epcot - Day 1

Our hotel - Art of Animation. Great pools and the girls loved the little mermaid themed room

Day 2 - Magic Kingdom

We had so much fun and tomorrow Delainey and I are making one more day trip to Magic Kingdom just the 2 of us. We are hoping to do some better rides (since we won't have Blakely holding us back because of the height requirement) and going to lunch at the Beauty & the Beast restaurant for the first time.  It's like 90% chance of rain so we are going to get wet, but oh well! Follow on Instagram for our fun tomorrow!

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Life over the past 2 weeks

Hey guys! Sorry it has been almost 2 weeks since my last post! I took off to enjoy memorial day weekend and then the girls and I vacationed at Disney for a few days and am just getting back into the swing of things.
Here is a little bit of what we have been doing:
The Friday of Memorial Day weekend we had a beach day with some of our friends. The tide pool was perfect for the kids to lay in and play.

Then the next day we swam and cooked out at the house with friends. Delainey was so worn out from swimming she fell asleep on the float. LOL
Then Sunday we swam and cooked out with the family. That Tuesday we left for a girls trip to Disney for 2 nights. I will do a separate blog post on our trip. Then we came back and Delainey had her first swim meet this past weekend. She did really well on the backstroke, but the freestyle needs some work. :) She really enjoyed it and it's a good thing because it is our life every Saturday for the next 8 weeks! :) 

Poor Pops had to swim with all 4 of the granddaughters in between races. LOL

Saturday night we went to Freedom Fest, a concert at our church that was helping to stop human trafficking. For King & Country sang as well as a few other bands and then there were fireworks to finish the night. 

So we have had a busy but fun past few weeks.  I have my 2 week from my D&C follow up appointment tomorrow. So  I will be back this Friday with an Infertility post and to let you know on where we are going from here. I hope you all have a great week! XOXO