Friday, May 19, 2017

(In)fertility friday

Hey guys! Sorry I forgot to do my blog last night. I was up late packing for our trip and then of course nothing was accomplished this morning. We headed to Daytona for a little beach getaway just the 4 of us. It's nice to just relax and lay by the pool and do nothing. Really Blakely makes us swim though most the day.
I'm definitely at that awkward stage that people are probably wondering if I'm pregnant or just have a nice beer gut. Lol Oh well! I don't know anyone down here so who cares. Other than the belly things are going well, boobs are still sore and still needing to eat lots! I see Dr. Garcia on Monday and if all looks well I will stop my crinone and heparin shots. I'll be back after my appointment to update you all. I hope you all have a nice relaxing weekend like we are!

Thursday, May 11, 2017

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY

Here comes big momma! LOL I am officially large and in charge and there is not much hiding of this belly now. I am in my last 2 pairs of shorts and can no longer fit in any of my pants. I will probably need to break out the maternity box in the next week or so. Unfortunately for me, my big belly was in the winter with the other two so I don't have much to get by for the summer months. I may need to make a shopping trip soon as well. 

All joking aside, I will gladly take the growing belly. It means something is happening in there and I am praying it continues to! I am 11 weeks on Saturday so we are passing the miscarriage week as we speak. I am still tired and nauseous so that is a good thing! :) I am still taking my crinone and heparin shots and will be doing so for a few more weeks. I think I will be most scared to stop those. I really feel like stopping the progesterone messed things up last time so I am going to be overly cautious and take it longer than needed. 

As far as nausea goes, it's not too bad as long as I am eating, but the problem is no food appeals to me! String cheese and protein shakes are all I like. I am not even loving pasta that much these days. Cold stuff is where its at. Maybe bc I feel like I get so hot easily I like cold food. I am positive our poor neighbors have seen my panties.  I am so hot all the time, all I wear is a t-shirt around the house. Whoops. We actually had neighbors move in this week so guess I better tighten things up.  LOL

I am still sleepy and taking naps during the day and pretty worthless when it comes to cleaning the house or cooking dinner. Luckily Dave has been home early this week so we have had 2 home cooked meals instead of our usual cereal for dinner or pizza rolls bc mom is too tired to do anything else haha. What's a few weeks of no nutrition in the grand scheme of life? I'll feel better soon and we will be back to normal in no time. 

My next Dr appointment is Monday the 22nd and it's with Dr. Garcia the OB. Its a 3 hour long visit with an ultrasound, check up with the dr, go over your insurance... So hopefully all will go well at that and the fact that I am pregnant will become public knowledge. Well atleast to those who don't follow my blog. :) Keep up the prayers guys for a healthy baby. They are working! And Happy Mother's Day to all you Moms out there. Sorry but mine our the best! :) 


Delainey's 5th Birthday Party

Last Saturday we celebrated Delainey turning 5 with an Elena of Avalor birthday pool party. The weather was a little chilly, but the kids didn't seem to mind too much. We had a piƱata and Tijuana Flats tacos and an Elena doll cake. Delainey had a great time with all her friends and family!






 D got some money for her birthday and she chose an at home pedicure kit. Where did my baby go?! :)



Thursday, May 4, 2017

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY

Do I dare say it? Should I be honest and say I am feeling pretty good about this pregnancy at this point. If I do recall I said the same thing last time after my 9 1/2 week appointment  and things went bad the next week. So forgive me for being cautious even though so far things are looking good. This week I had a 2nd ultrasound with Dr. Brown. He is such a gem. He knew with the miscarriage I wanted a little extra reassurance and had zero problem with me coming in for another ultrasound. He actually said the miscarriage rate is decreased when patients are given extra reassurances through ultrasounds. Totally makes sense so you aren't as stressed. So we are 2 down and 1 more to go. Not with him though. His insurance won't cover you after 10 weeks so I am moving back to Dr. Garcia again. The wanted to get me in next week, but I conveniently pushed it a few weeks later so I would be 12 weeks for my next ultrasound. If all looks good at that one, I will feel confident we will have a baby in December!

I feel good about this though because there are some noticeable differences in this one and last one. Last time my numbers didn't double and these almost tripled. Last time my 9 week ultrasound the baby was measuring behind, this one is on track. I had zero soreness in my boobs and this time they are tender and finally starting to get bigger. Both times I have had nausea which isn't very fun, but a good sign. So there are some differences that are giving me confidence.

Of course it is all in God's hands how it will turn out so worrying one way or the other won't change his plans. So we will continue to pray for peace and a healthy baby and let time tell. :) I am continuing on my crinone and heparin till 12 weeks and then baby aspirin and prenatal will be all there is to do! Next week I will do a bump picture because Big Momma is getting large! :) At night my belly looks huge. Mainly because I ate half the refrigerator that day LOL. Anyways, Here are some pics from the ultrasound this week. We celebrating D's 5th birthday Saturday with a party so I'll be back with lots of pictures. I hope you all have a great weekend!


Happy 5th Birthday Delainey!

I can't believe my first born is 5 years old! I was so emotional celebrating her birthday! I attribute most of it to pregnancy hormones LOL but 5 is such a big year. She is a grown kid now. She is off to kindergarten 5 days a week where my time spent with her is limited. So heartbreaking. I hated when kids missed school as a teacher, but I totally get it now. I am definitely going to need some days during the week every now and then to do trips or just have a mommy daughter day. :)

We celebrated with presents in the morning, cupcakes at school, swimming with our cousins, and hibachi for dinner. It also happened to be the Awana Cubbies Ceremony and the Mother's Day Tea so I was with her most of the day which was fun!

We will be doing a big Elena Pool Party on Saturday to finish off birthday week! We love you so much sweet Delainey Marie!







Friday, April 28, 2017

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY

Let me set the scene for you for tonight. I am laying in bed doing this blog. (Have been in bed since 8:20.) There is a stack of saltine crackers on my night stand with 2 waters and I am eating wheat thins and string cheese in bed. The pregnancy symptoms have officially hit. I know it means something is in there growing and sucking the life out of me, but it is not pleasant for me. :) Luckily I am not a thrower upper (is that even a word) but I feel nauseous most of the day. The key to keeping it at bay is to keep eating. So that is what I do. When I wake in the middle of the night, I have to eat some saltines before going back to bed. When I wake in the morning I immediately grab a protein shake and a granola bar and that gets me through for about an hour until its cereal for breakfast. I snack all day in the car or wherever I am on smoothies, fruit, pirates booty. Lunch and dinner are very wishy washy depending on what I am in the mood for. Mainly cold things are what I like. I like cold noodles, salads, cheese, apples with peanut butter, smoothies, crackers or chips.... Not really any meats or veggies though. I lived off of cheese quesadillas last pregnancy and they don't even sound good. :( I need to go to publix and find some good cold foods to buy! So moral of the story if this keeps up which based off of both my pregnancies with the girls. it last for 6 weeks I am in for another 4-5 weeks. So I am going to be huge from eating all day long and I don't even care. As long as I feel good I am happy. 

The exhaustion has also hit. I am usually asleep by 9 and often times nap during the day when Blakely takes her nap. I am not in the coma like I was in the past, but still tired. Other than those new symptoms things are the same. Still on crinone and heparin and I have another ultrasound on Tuesday morning. I think if the baby is measuring on track I will feel pretty good. Last time when I miscarried it was a few days behind so lets pray it is measuring on track! I will be back early next week to update you on how it went. I am off to bed, we have big Daddy's (Dave's) 36 birthday tomorrow! Big day of soccer and then maybe dinner out to celebrate. I hope you all have a good weekend. 

Sunday, April 23, 2017

National Infertility Awareness Week 2017


Today kicks off National Infertility Awareness week and I thought it deserved a blog post since Infertility consists of majority of the posts as of late. It is so crazy to look back on my journey with infertility and see how much my life and perspective have changed over the past 6 1/2 years of dealing with it. I, unlike some others, have been blessed with 2 wonderful miracles during my struggles with infertility. (Hopefully more) I think I can still identify though with others who yearn in their heart to be a mom or have another child for those who have not been able to yet.

When I started trying to have kids 6 1/2 years ago, I had never once heard of the word infertility and now I can count at least 10 friends/acquaintances who are dealing with it too. I really think it was a disservice to keep it such a hidden epidemic. I never knew not getting pregnant was an option, and I surely didn't know what conceiving a child could entail including the cost of it. When trying to get pregnant with my first child. Not a soul knew. I made up lies to hide why I was at the Doctor. Told stories about why it wasn't a good time to have a baby yet, basically did everything I could to hide the fact that we were having trouble. My mom, dad and sister knew but that was it! Looking back, it seems like the most ridiculous thing ever. Why not tell my boss the truth so they would understand why I was taking off so much. Why not tell my mother in law so that side of my family could pray and care for me as we needed. Why not tell my friends hey this is a possibility for you too so keep that in mind when you are ready for kids. Or be careful when asking someone when do you want kids because you never know what someone is secretly struggling with. I would have done it totally different the first time around, but hey I guess what they say is true, you live and you learn.

Now a days I want to help any and everyone struggling with infertility. Not only to educate them on on what all IUIs, IVF, and miscarriage entail, but also to empower them that they are not alone and not to be ashamed if they are struggling with infertility. It is not because of something you or your spouse did, It is a disease. If anyone is going through this secretly or alone, I hope reading this has empowered you to share with your friends and family. As hard as it is to share, it is 100% worth in the amount of support, prayers, and love you will receive. All of which make the journey that much easier. I would love to talk with or help anyone who is on this journey that may have questions or just need someone to talk to. I am still on the path and have done most anything out there so I can definitely relate and empathize.

And of course being on this journey the past 6 1/2 years, has been such a blessing to my faith. Having to rely on God and trust him through it all has grown me exponentially. And because of that growth I can firmly say that I am a better person, mother, friend, wife... than I was 6 years ago. So those who are struggling, know the growth that occurs within you during this time is the best reward of all. God knew you could handle this so my hats off to you! Look to God for strength, trust in his perfect plan and timing, and know that he knows what is best for you and will give you exactly what you need. Keep on truckin' ladies and shouting it from the rooftops. We will not let Infertility define us. We are 1 in 8!