Wednesday, June 13, 2018

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 10 Week Update

So we have officially made it into the 10 week threshold! The baby measuring at 10 weeks and 2 days isn't something we have seen since being pregnant with Blakely! I of course am still cautious since its only a few days into 10 weeks and will feel super good about it once I hit 12 weeks but atleast we have crossed my past 2 times miscarriage hump. Dr. Winslow did a very quick ultrasound and said all looks good. He didn't give me a heartbeat reading or check the size of my fluid even though I asked him to. He said it all looks fine don't worry about it. Ugg some doctors can be so understanding with my  neurotic billion questions and some can't. He can't handle it. He said just enjoy being pregnant and stop worrying about it. LOL

He did say he can't find the blood anywhere and it looks like all has reattached good so that is good. I thought I myself saw a little area so who knows if eventually I will bleed it out or not. So that is where we stand. I am officially graduated from the FIRM and moving onto Dr. Garcia. I have had bad luck the  past 2 times I have had ultrasounds at Garcias so I'm sure I will be a nervous wreck when that is scheduled. I am waiting to hear back from the nurses now to get me scheduled in the next week or so.

As far as medicines go, I am going to stop my progesterone shots on Sunday and then lower my crinone from twice a day to once a day from week 11-12. I stop Heparin at 12 so all that will be left to take is my vitamins! Thank you guys so much for your prayers and lets keep it going for 2 more solid weeks!! My sister in law Emily is having her baby either tomorrow or Monday depending on how her blood pressure and urine sample look, so say some prayers for a smooth healthy delivery. Can't wait to add another to the McLaughlin bunch of cousins!! I'll keep you all updated on when my next ultrasound is! Thanks again for the prayers! You all are amazing and I truly feel the love from both near and far!! XOXO

Thursday, June 7, 2018

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 9 WEEK UPDATE

1. We heard a heart beat today. Baby's heart rate was at 180 and he said thats right where it should be. 2. Baby was measuring on track at 25 mm which was right where I needed to be in relation to last week.
3. The blood looked the same. He measured it at 2 cm instead of 2.5 but looked about the same to me so that is good.

I told the doctor I have had 2 previous miscarriages at week 9 and asked if there was anything that he could see that could be bad. He said the only thing I can find that is not right on track is the size of the gestational sac. He said it looked a little low on fluid. He said normal range measures from a week behind to a week ahead of where you are. So 8 weeks and 3 days to 10 weeks and 3 days is normal. Mine was at 8 weeks flat. He said he wasn't super concerned, but of course it's another thing to worry about. So I of course googled how to increase the fluid and the main thing is to stay hydrated. So of course I am going to be over the top about it. A bottle of water every hour for 12 hours. I bought watermelon water and coconut water and lots of strawberries, watermelon, and cantaloupe. So hopefully it will help.

I have another ultrasound on Wednesday which would put me at 10 weeks and 2 days. I have yet for a baby to make it to measuring 10 weeks so that would be huge if we can do that! I say after that I will breathe a sigh of relief but I doubt that will happen till one more ultrasound at 12 weeks. Or honestly until I have a child in my hands I will be stressed. LOL too much knowledge and history to enjoy like the good old days! So please amp up the prayers this week. We really need them for the baby as well as my anxiety for my dr appt next Wednesday. I will probably throw up before next weeks from nerves lol. Thank you all of following along and praying. We really do appreciate it so much and I have been bad about updating you through text I am so sorry. It is unintentional and I just sometimes forget who all I need to update asap on the ultrasounds. Talk to you all soon! XOXO

Friday, June 1, 2018

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 8 WEEK UPDATE

Hey friends! So I had a super emotional weekend last weekend. First let me start by saying we had a great beach vacation getaway at St. Augustine Beach. The weather was supposed to be horrible all week and it only rained 1 day and it was so light and scattered that the kids just swam through it. We played at the Beach on Saturday with Georgia and Jeff, went down to our friend Alicia's condo on Sunday where we swam and cooked out, went to the beach again on Monday with all the kids by Alicia's condo, Gram came down Monday night, and we had another beach day on Tuesday with Gram and Gammoe and we were at the beach ALL day! So it ended up being a great relaxing week away! Lovely way to start summer!





As far as the emotion goes, I wrote this blog post last Friday about how the symptoms had finally kicked in and then Saturday morning I wake up perfectly fine. Like zero nausea, not tired and needing naps, my boobs were still a little sore, but it was hard to tell if it was more or less. I told Dave this is not good. I have traveled this road twice now and both times, I have woken up one random day and felt good and things turned out bad at the next ultrasound. We continued on with our day, but the thought was in the back of my mind. That night I had the most vivid dream of an ultrasound happening and their being no heartbeat, and all my friends and family were cycling through the room to tell me sorry and console me. So when I woke I said a prayer and asked God to give me a sign. Well I read daily from my YouVersion Bible app and everyday they post a verse of the day. So I said please let the verse be an indicator of what was happening with me. Well here was the verse of the day.

He bears our burdens. UGHH Here comes another burden; I just knew things were bad. I had accepted it and chose to still enjoy my weekend despite losing the baby. It was obviously not the right time and God would give us a baby at the right time. So I was scheduled for an ultrasound on Tuesday to see how the blood was doing. I told Dave be prepared we would probably be doing another D&C on Thursday. I was going to call Dr. Garcia's office and see when he could fit me in. So when he inserted the wand and said theres a good heartbeat I about died. I said are you positive?!? He pointed and I couldn't believe it. I said how is it measuring. Great right at 16 mm which means it grew 9 mm in 8 days and it usually grows 1 mm a day. He said the blood measured the same so that was a good thing that it wasn't an active bleed. I said are you 100% sure you saw a heartbeat bc I don't see anything on the monitor. He said that is because I have it frozen Jamie to print a picture hahah. He took it off frozen and showed it to me it again. So much to my surprise we still have a baby growing in there. I don't want to get my hopes up because I have always had great 8 week ultrasounds so the scariest time is ahead of us, but it at least means there is still a possibility for a child at the end of this.

So please keep the prayers coming we have 2 weeks to get over my miscarriage hump. He wants me to keep coming in weekly to check on the blood and I am 100% ok with it. I like knowing weekly if the baby is still alive. He is out of town next week so I will see his partner Dr. Freeman, but honestly I could do the ultrasound myself at this point. So hopefully all will look good then and then the scary week will happen. It is when the baby usually switches to relying on the placenta for blood and nutrition instead of the progesterone hormone. I feel like everytime there is a blood clot and thats why the baby dies. Of course this is just my speculation. So if I can have 2 more good ultrasounds I may start to feel a little bit better! I told my friend Krista, I honestly won't feel good till this baby is born, LOL knowing all we know that can happen with babies and pregnancies from first hand experience with my friends. But if I hit the second trimester I know we are headed in the right direction and I will breathe some serious sighs of relief. Thank you all for your continued prayers. We need them desperately now for the next few weeks and some peace when I go into the doctor these next 2 (hopefully) times. I hope you all have a great start to your summer! D is in full force on the swim team and has her first meet tom so that has been keeping us busy 3-4 days a week! Talk to you all soon! XOXO

By the way: I am still on the progesterone shots in the rear and crinone twice a day, heparin twice a day, and prenatals and b12 folate. The shots make me sore but it isn't so bad that I can't walk so that is good! Just wanted to document my meds for future references. Hopefully we won't ever need to know again. :)

Thursday, May 24, 2018

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 7 week update

Well friends I have arrived. And by arrived I mean the pregnancy symptoms have arrived. It is good because that means something is happening and I have been waiting to feel bad. But now that it is here I remember how rough it is. I am wondering if the timing of the booty shots is just coincidental or if the shot has kicked up the symptoms but they are fully present. I am nauseous most of the day, feel constantly hungry, am super tired and taking naps every day, and am irritable as all get out. Sorry family :( I just feel so exhausted my patience is so short! So that is where we stand this week. Hopefully the symptoms continue to 12 weeks and it means all is well with this baby.

As far as the bleeding goes, I still haven't bled yet and am taking it as easy I can so that is a plus! My booty is definitely sore, but Dave is doing a great job of giving me my shots. And we go back for another ultrasound on Tuesday so the waiting continues. We are headed to St. Augustine beach for 5 days for a little Schools out vacay!! We wanted close enough so Dave could come for the weekend but somewhere that didn't feel like home. Of course this weather is going to be horrible majority of the time but we are praying it slows down till atleast Monday and we'll make the best of it no matter what! So that is where we stand! Follow along on my instagram for all our fun this weekend and I will be back on Tuesday with hopefully a good update! We need a healthy good heartbeat, measuring on track, and no blood or atleast blood that hasn't gotten bigger. I hope you all have a great Memorial Day weekend and we are super excited for summertime! Let the pool and fun begin!! XOXO

Last Day of School Pic of my Girls!!

Monday, May 21, 2018

3rd Ultrasound

So I have an early update for you because after my post last week, my doctor called the next day and changed around my meds and moved up when to see me. The Dr. called a specialist in recurrent miscarriage loss and asked her opinion on what I should do with my meds and the bleeding and he said to stop my baby aspirin but stay on the Heparin. You guys may not have known I was on that, but I have been since I found out I was pregnant. So the concern is we want to stop the blood thinners to help stop the bleeding, but not stop them so much that I  have a clot in the placenta and the baby stops growing and dies. It is a balancing act. So anyways I stopped the baby aspirin and went in this morning.
He said the bleeding spot had grown. He couldn't tell me how much it had grown but this time it measured 2 cm in length. There was still a good heartbeat and the baby was measuring on track so that is a good thing! It is getting some blood and nutrients! He wanted to make sure it got enough progesterone too so he added in a shot of progesterone in the booty. It's like dejavu. Back to the dreaded booty shots. I already got one this morning and my hip/hiney is already so sore. I'll take it though if this results in a healthy baby! So I will be doing that for the next week. We go back next Tuesday to see how things are looking. Hopefully still no spotting and the blood is smaller or absorbed. And that the baby has a good heartbeat and is measuring on track. Those are the prayers we need right now. I am told to take it easy and no lifting so we are going to be watching lots of tv and movies this week! I'll be back this Friday with an update on how things are going and what our plans are for the weekend! Talk to you all soon! XOXO

Thursday, May 17, 2018

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 2nd Ultrasound

So as we all have learned over the past few years, nothing is simple with me and surely nothing is black and white. That remains true for my doctors appointment today. All we were hoping for was a good heartbeat and things to be looking good. Well we did have a good heartbeat or it looked good, we didn't get to hear it, but we did find an issue. It is called a Subchorionic hemorrhage. Basically its a blood clot or bleed that happens between the uterus and the placenta. Mine is not too big according to the Dr, but we need to watch it to make sure it doesn't get bigger. So we wait another week and go back next week to see if it is bigger or smaller or hopefully completely gone. If it grows there is a risk for the placenta to detach which means miscarriage. So we are praying it gets better. He put me on light activity no lifting or anything strenuous for the next week so we can make sure I am not continuing to bleed. So that is the latest with us. Some serious testing God is putting me through. I will take it though if it all ends in  a healthy baby. Here is a picture and the arrow is pointing to the part that is the blood.
Thanks for your prayers and now we have something new to add to the list of prayers. I think I am going to add as well that on my next doctor appointment let everything be smooth sailing from next week on. I will keep you all posted next week! Pray the bleeding stops and disappears. XOXO

Thursday, May 10, 2018

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - First ultrasound

So today was my first ultrasound. Earlier than a usual one would be scheduled, but because of my slow rising numbers they wanted to make sure a gestational sac had formed and that it was in my uterus and not anywhere else. So today we headed in and I was a nervous wreck. I would like to note that after Friday, I was really ok with whatever the outcome would be. I had a peace from God that we would be fine no matter how it went and we had a great weekend camping and celebrating Delainey's birthday. This week was good and I honestly didn't start worrying again till last night. Not that it would change anything, but I liked the idea of not knowing in case if it wasn't a good outcome. I liked having a hope to hold onto instead of it being bad news and being out of luck.

So we headed to the doctor this morning and as soon as she stuck the probe in she said oh look there is a sac and I said in my uterus? And she said ya and I started to cry and said Thank you Lord. So really all I could see this early is a gestational sac and a small little white dot which is called a yolk sac. But atleast we ruled out the chance of an ectopic and things are moving in the right direction. It was a sigh of relief, but we have a long way to go! Next Thursday I have another ultrasound and by then we should see a heartbeat. So please keep the prayers coming that all continues to go well! We are going to keep trusting in God and that his plan is perfect!

Thank you guys for your continued prayers. I told David today if nothing else good comes from this we truly know how blessed we are to have so many people love and support us through all this! I had to send out lots of texts sharing the good news as I knew lots of people were waiting by their phones to hear how things went. How blessed are we! You guys don't know how grateful we really are! I will keep you posted on how things progress. We have soccer, a boat day, and mothers day on our agenda this weekend. Happy Mother's Day to all you amazing women in my life! Talk to you soon! XOXO