(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 5 Month Bumpdate

How far along are you: 20 weeks and 3 days (halfway there!)

Size of baby: Mango. 10 inches (now the length is measured from head to toe not just crown to rump) & 10.5 oz. He is getting so big!

Gender/Name: It's a boy! Can't wait to meet our boy Samuel in 4ish months!

Cravings: I calmed down a little on my out of control eating this month. My current obsession though is sub sandwiches. Jimmy Johns Italian to be exact. Yes I know you aren't supposed to eat deli meat, but my Dr has had one person with listeria in his 35 years of practice and the places I go slice it fresh daily. I wouldn't go to subway per say or even eat it out of my own fridge unless it was a brand new package. I am loving bagels and have gotten back into decaf coffee just cause I enjoy the taste and a cup early in the morning during my quiet time.

Weight gained: 13 total lbs. I am going off of my own scale at home and not the doctors haha

Sleep: I'm sleeping good. Haven't been doing my naps lately so I am out like a light by 10 which is super early for me, but I am sleeping good. As long as I don't drink too much water I can make it through the night without going to the bathroom which is lovely!

Baby Movement: I feel little Bubs all the time. The girls call him bubba and they are so sweet. They talk to him and rub him. Usually when I sit down still for a few minutes he will wake up and give me some kicks to let me know he is in there having a good old time. I love feeling him.

How Mom is feeling: I am feeling great! I am definitely in the honeymoon stage of pregnancy. 15 - 30 weeks for me is usually great. I am not too tired, I feel good and can move around well. I am super excited that school is back and excited for all the fun fall activities coming up! It is my most favorite time of year! I want to just slow down and cherish it all though. I feel like this past month flew! I can't believe I am already doing a 5 month bump date!

Miss Anything: Still Working out. So 2 weeks ago I couldn't handle my lack of definition in my booty and legs. I had to go to the gym to just do some leg and arm machines. It actually felt very good. I can do some basic machines and stay in a little bit of shape. I have stayed away though until the girls are in school because I don't need them getting sick in the nasty kids zone. So hopefully I will go back a few days a week while Blakey is in school.

Nursery Progress: I pretty much have everything I need or have ordered it and just need to assemble it all. I am waiting on a bookcase which is being made for me. Once I have that I can really see the room layout and then finalize where I want to hang things. Hopefully I will have it in a couple weeks and we can finish that up!

Best moment this month: Having a great anatomy scan. The ultrasound tech Gail is amazing and she is so thorough and explains everything. Grammy came with me and thought is was so cool. All looked good with Sam, praise the Lord and my blood tests came back fine so we are looking great! I wish I could have an ultrasound every time just to see him, but I know that is not realistic. I don't think I will get one again for a while. I also loved reading all the sweet words and comments when everyone found out that we were having a boy and his name would be Samuel David!

Looking forward to next month: I am looking forward to it officially being fall next week, decorating my house, football season, and the weather cooling down (wishful thinking). D starts up soccer next week and both girls have joined gymnastics once a week. The real great part about fall is that BSF and my Mom2Mom group starts in 2 weeks. I am ready to get back into a routine with some bible studies. We are nice and busy over here in the McLaughlin house!

Hope everyone had a good first few days back in school! This Mama is loving some free time! XOXO

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - Gender/Name Reveal

It's a boy!!! Honestly I am still shocked to say we are going to be having a baby boy! Even though I have know for 17 weeks now it still doesn't seem real! We are all so happy and it is just icing on the cake to know that he will have 2 boy cousins within 6 months of his birthday. Caleb is 6 months older and Rush will be 5 months older.

It is crazy to see how God works and how truly perfect his timing is! How boring would it have been if I had a boy 2 years ago with no one to grow up with. He would have been the lone ranger. God has planned this perfectly to be best friends with his cousins since myself and Kelli are done after these sweet little angels. So they can basically be brothers with each other. So that makes 8 grandkids 6 and under for Grammy & Pops and we have evened out the numbers. 4 girls and 4 boys! :)

So rewind to about 5 months ago when I had done my egg retrieval and I knew that only 2 embryos had made it to day 5 and been tested. I was devastated. I knew the odds were 50% of the embryos would be normal and the other wouldn't. Well if that was true only 1 would be normal. But who knows maybe 2 would be normal or maybe they would call and say sorry both are abnormal and we would be back to square one. It was the longest 2 weeks of my life waiting for the results to come back in. Finally the day arrived when my Doctor called and gave me the news. "You have one normal embryo. The other one was abnormal." So I breathed a sigh of relief to know that I at least had one shot at a baby. Then he said would you like to know the gender. Well all along I had been saying no I don't want to know just pick the healthiest baby and God will give us what we need. But I didn't have any picking and choosing now. The gender of that one healthy one was what it was going to be. I said um ok sure tell me the gender. He said it is a male. I about wrecked my car! I said excuse me could you tell me that again. He said it is a male and the abnormal was a male too. I about died. I only wanted a healthy baby but that made it even that much sweeter knowing my sister and sister-in-law were already pregnant with boys! So I decided to keep it a secret from everyone until I made it to the 2nd trimester. David was fine with that and my little secret was locked away for a few months.

To be honest, the main reason I did it was to save everyone else from the extreme heartbreak if it didn't work. We had already lost 2 babies at 10 and 12 weeks and that was difficult enough. But to know the gender and really truly view the few dividing cells as a human with a name made it that much harder and more difficult. Yes losing any baby is devastating, but to know the gender and know how perfect having a boy would be to complete our family was that much harder. In hindsight I think I would have said no to finding out until I made it to the 2nd trimester, but you live and you learn. I did however love having a specific name to pray for from day 1 when implanting the embryo.

Which brings me to his name. His name is going to be Samuel David McLaughlin. And we chose Samuel for 2 reasons. Number 1 it is my grandfather's name (Bumpa for those of you who know me well). I know you aren't supposed to pick favorites, but he was my absolute favorite grandparent! He was a good old Italian boy who had the softest hands and earlobes (yes I loved rubbing his ears) and he loved us like we were his own. He taught me how to drive a car, he would walk me to the bus stop and on cold days let me and my friend Holly hide under his jacket to stay warm while waiting for the bus. He made the best Italian spaghetti and meatballs and I have clearly gotten my love of pasta from him. He was just so amazing and I have so many great memories of him that I want to carry on his name and keep his legacy in the family.

The 2nd reason is because of Samuel in the Bible. (You can read the story in 1 Samuel 1) Several years ago when infertility really struck, I drew near to God and started reading the Bible and books about people who had to wait from the Bible. I quickly learned about the story of Hannah who was a barren woman. She had no children and cried out to God to give her a son. She pleaded with God that if he gave her a son she would give him back to the Lord for all the days of his life. A priest named Eli saw her crying and praying and he said may the Lord grant you what you have asked of him. Sure enough Hannah had a son and she named him Samuel because it meant "God gave what I asked of him." When he got a little older she brought Samuel to Eli and dedicated him to the Lord and he ended up being one of the greatest prophets to ever live. I loved this story and often prayed to God to grant me a child like he did Hannah. It was my story of hope I held onto that God could perform a miracle at any time. I think it is also very ironic that Samuel anointed David as King and my husband David was named after David from the Bible. So we have ourselves a good old Biblical name for this baby boy!

One other crazy thing that proves God had all this planned, is that I bought this blanket over a year ago right before my second miscarriage. I loved the verse and the story behind it (Samuel). Little did I know it had my sons name on it long before he was ever even created.

So there you have it folks! We are having a little boy named Samuel and he should be here by January 7th, 2019. We couldn't be more thankful and grateful and we just feel so blessed that this 2 year journey was all worth it and God had it all figured out from the very beginning. What an awesome God he is! Thanks for the continued prayers! XOXO


PS. I shared our gender reveal video on Facebook and Instagram if you want to see how the family reacted when they found out it was a boy! It was precious!

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 4 MONTH BUMPDATE

Sorry for the long break since my last post! We have been busy with swim team championships, a baby shower for my friend Tracie, waiting on baby Rush to make his debut, and Mary Beth & Collier visiting for the past week! Where has the summer gone! I can't believe it is august in 5 days. Officially 2 weeks till Delainey's first day of school. I am so not ready for school yet. I am really enjoying the sleeping in and relaxing mornings. It is coming whether we are ready or not though!

Anyways back to the Bumpdate! Yea! I have finally made to the point where I can do a monthly Bumpdate. I probably could have done one at 12 weeks too, but didn't think of it till a couple weeks ago so we will start today and do monthly updates with other fun things on the weeks between.

How far along are you: 16 weeks and 5 days

Size of baby: Avocado. Yum :) 4.5 inches & 3.5 oz

Gender/Name: I will be sharing that with the world next week! I've been holding out for my anatomy scan on Tuesday to make sure all looks good!

Cravings: I have fallen back into the world of carbs and pasta. I did so good the first few months with veggies and eating somewhat healthy, but lately all I want are noodles. We have had company in town and have eaten out a lot so hopefully I will get back on track with my eating now that all the craziness has died down. I still am liking cold things: fruit, salads, smoothies, yogurt. Eggs have started to gross me out but otherwise I am eating pretty normal.

Weight gained: 6 lbs. I didn't gain any weight at my 12 week appointment, but I think I have been making up for that the last few weeks.

Sleep: I have been sleeping pretty good. I busted out my wedge pillow to put under my belly so I don't keep rolling onto my stomach when sleeping on my side. But otherwise sleeping through the night with an occasional wake to go potty. Still taking cat naps during the day every now and then.

Baby Movement: I felt a kick! Actually a few now! At 15 weeks, I was watching tv and felt the first and said Dave I just felt the baby! It is still sporadic, but I am feeling it more and more. I can't wait to feel it all day everyday! That is one of my favorite parts of being pregnant.

How Mom is feeling: I am feeling good. Excited to hit the 4 month mark. Trying to let all fear and anxiety go away and just enjoy my last pregnancy. I can't believe how quickly it is flying by so I want to cherish all of it. I of course am a little anxious for my anatomy scan. I just want everything to be 100% perfect with it! Been having fun with the girls and have some fun weekends planned for the fall before baby arrives so I'm excited about that.

Miss Anything: Working out. I wish I could go do some body pump or something. I finally tried yoga on Tuesday just to do some sort of exercise, but I didn't like it. I couldn't do some of the movements and I felt like my ligaments were stretching and pulling. So I probably won't be doing that again. And I surely am not walking in this heat. So working out will wait till January! (Note: I do think everyone should work out while pregnant but I couldn't at the beginning and they say don't start something new that you haven't been doing the whole time so I'll just continue doing nothing)

Nursery Progress: I already have the nursery furniture from the girls, so I just need to decorate and buy some small things. I actually just bought the crib bedding today so that is a step in the right direction! I have gone anti color (you know that if you have ever stepped foot in my house) so I will be doing a plain neutral nursery. All white and beige everywhere! Here is the bedding I ordered.

Best moment this month: Feeling baby kick and hearing the heartbeat! My friend Alicia gave me her doppler and I love it! I started at about 13 weeks and maybe 2 times a week I will pull out the doppler and listen to baby's heartbeat. The girls love listening to it beat and talking to the baby. 5 weeks was too long to go without hearing the heartbeat so I have been loving doing it a few times a week on my own.

Looking forward to next month: I am looking forward to my anatomy scan and praying all looks good with baby. I am also excited to share the gender. Quite a few people know the gender like family and close friends, but the social media world hasn't heard yet. Also looking forward to adding another cousin to the family as baby Rush should make his debut any minute now.

Hope you all are doing well and enjoying summer! School will be back before we know it! XOXO

Our 2 year journey for Baby #3!

Our journey for Baby #3 started exactly 2 years ago. We had a one year old and a 4 year old and thought since conceiving them took lots of time and work, we might as well get started sooner than later. I did a Fresh IVF cycle which resulted in Blakely and I was able to freeze 6 embryos. So in my naive mind I had 6 more kids waiting for the right time! The right time was the summer of 2016. I started taking all of my shots and had a frozen embryo transfer (FET)  in July. It worked and I actually was pregnant with twins. One of the twins died off quickly but the other baby looked great and I was passed from the fertility doctor to my regular OB at 9 weeks. A week and a half later at my regular OB ultrasound, the tech could not find a heartbeat and we had a D&C scheduled the next day and I was no longer pregnant. To say it rocked my world is an understatement! I think it was the lowest I had been throughout this entire 7 year trying to conceive journey. I went into a month of solitary and borderline depression. I just didn't know how to cope with everything after so many weeks of praying and shots and medications.

By the grace of God (literally), I was able to come out of it and realize my true meaning and purpose in life. God had it ordained that I started Bible Study Fellowship on the day of my D&C. The month after my D&C, I learned more about God and read the Bible more than I ever have in my entire life. One week my leader spoke and talked about how we are here on Earth to do God's work and share about him with others, not be preoccupied with what we wanted for our own lives. So I took that to heart and learned to trust in God's perfect plan for my life.

Fast forward to a few months later and I felt good enough to do another FET. On March 17, 2017, St. Patricks Day, we transferred another 2 embryos and one of them took. I was pregnant again! Surely this time was going to work. I had learned my lesson from God and was actually grateful for my first miscarriage and all the spiritual growth that had occurred. All looked great again and I was passed from my fertility doctor at 9 1/2 weeks. At my regular OB ultrasound at 12 weeks, they once again found no heartbeat. Was this a bad dream? I had been here before and surely it could not be happening again. It did and 2 days later I was in the hospital for my 2nd D&C. I took this one much better to be honest. I still had my guard up somewhat so I think that helped as well as my relationship with God was much deeper.

Fast forward a few more months to August and I said ok lets give it one last try. These are our last 2 embryos and both times I have gotten pregnant so the odds are in my favor. 8 days after my transfer I took a pregnancy test, and it said Not pregnant. It didn't work. So now what do we do? Do we call it quits and just thank God for the 2 beautiful girls we have? I wasn't sure at the time if I would do it again, but I just had this feeling that my family wasn't complete. So I vowed to wait for God to tell me when to do it again. I really would have loved a verbal announcement that now was the time, but I knew it would be more subtle in the form of signs. Well by December a few things started to happen and I just knew God wasn't done and I had to give it one more try.

So in February 2018, I decided to do the entire Fresh IVF cycle again. We new we only wanted one more baby, but I was hoping and praying for lots of embryos because we ended up with one child out of 7 last time. So off we went. We also decided this time to do genetic testing to increase our chances of a healthy baby. For both miscarriages no-one could tell me why they didn't live past 9 weeks. They said they could have been genetically abnormal or just plain bad luck. So we decided to give ourselves the best chance possible. We would do the genetic testing and atleast put in a embryo that had all the right chromosomes and we would let God to the rest from there.

The shots began and we were counting about 8-10 embryos that were growing. I was really hoping for 10-12 but could live with 8. Last time we got 10 eggs and 7 made it to day 5 so if I had 8 I would have about 5-6 embryos to freeze which hopefully would give us our one last baby. On the day of my retrieval they removed 8 embryos and 7 fertilized. I was ecstatic! Then day 6 happened when I got a call to tell me how many embryos they were able to genetically test and freeze, and it was only 2. :( This lady was a hot mess! Seriously only 2! I knew the statistics and on average 50% of genetically tested embryos come back abnormal so if I was a normal statistic I would have 1 embryo. Or I could have none. Who knows!

So the 2 week wait to get my results back ensued. It was miserable playing every scenario in my mind. What was my next step... I have learned over the past 2 years, you pretty much cannot control anything! It is all up to God so I had to give it up to him. I am still a work in progress on this by the way. I finally got the phone call and the doctor told me, that I had one normal embryo. One shot for a baby and if it doesn't work all this money is out the window and we are back to square one.

So we waited for the perfect time to transfer, based off of my own normal ovulation and in that one little embryo went. Talk about stressful and anxiety while I waited to see if it worked and I become pregnant. 8 days later I took a pregnancy test and it said Pregnant! Woohoo! I was cautiously optimistic. But then God started to test me every step of the way for the next few weeks.

I had my first blood test and all looked great! I was so happy! Then I went in 2 days later to see if my numbers were doubling and they were not. I even went in the next day and they still hadn't doubled. From the mountaintop to the valley I went. The baby was 100% not making it. I was certain. Slow numbers can be an indication of an ectopic pregnancy so they scheduled me for a very early ultrasound at 5 weeks to see if we could just see a sac. It was not an ectopic Thank the Lord. Come back next week to see if we see a heartbeat, we did! Come back the next week just to check things (7 weeks), they found a hemorrhage and the placenta was not attached completely. It could either detach fully or we wait and hope the blood stops and it will reattach. Week 8, its still there but not too much bigger. Week 9 it is still there but same size. Week 10 I go in more anxious than I have ever been in my life. Both miscarriages the babies stopped growing during the 9th week. Will I go see no heartbeat again? I said a prayer and asked God for an obvious sign! If this baby is going to make it, could he make the heartbeat and everything look great and even make the blood disappear. So what did God do? He did just that for me! The blood had disappeared, the placenta was fully attached and we saw a baby actually moving and kicking around! I have even moved on to my OB and had a great ultrasound at 12 weeks that looked great! Can this really be happening? Am I actually going to have a baby after 2 long years of trials and tragedies? I am still in shock and still cautious, but I think I will always be until I am holding a child in my arms! So friends I am pregnant!! I am in my second trimester at 14 weeks and am due on January 7th!

In hindsight, God laid all of this out perfectly! He gave me only one embryo because we only wanted one more baby, he gave me only one embryo so we wouldn't have to face the decision of which embryo to put in based off of gender, he gave me low numbers so I could have early ultrasounds to give me reassurance, he gave me a hemorrhage because there was no way I would sleep if I didn't get to see the baby weekly to make sure it was still alive and growing. It all has worked out so beautifully  that I wish I didn't doubt every step along the way because clearly God has got this under control. He surely doesn't need me and my crappy plans to interfere.

So I hope that for anyone who is reading this, my story can inspire you. Inspire you to trust in God and lean in to him, no matter what trial you are facing. He has everyday of your life written out already and we need to sit back and let God unfold it how he sees fit. We need to trust that his plan is best. Trust that God loves us more than we could ever imagine and he wants whats best for us. What we think is best for our lives may not actually be. I needed those miscarriages to happen. Without them who knows where I would be trying to live life on my own. Because of them, I have strengthened and deepened my relationship with God. And truly all we are here on Earth for is to build relationships with others and bring them to Heaven with us one day. So in the end it was all worth it!

Thank you to all who have been on this journey with me over the past 2 years and have prayed for me constantly. You'll never know how much I appreciated it and still do! I am so glad I have a community of Godly people guiding me throughout my life. Prayers for a continued healthy pregnancy and baby of course are always welcome too! Love to you all! XOXO

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - HELLO 2ND TRIMESTER!

Woohoo! We have made it to the 2nd trimester and are officially 1/3 of the way to meeting Baby McLaughlin #3. There is no denying that I am pregnant these days and people are starting to ask when I will share the news of my pregnancy with the world. I just want to do a good God glorifying post. Last time I posted something on facebook was after my 2nd miscarriage and I had like 1,000 views so I need it to be a stellar post telling my journey over the past 2 years and how God has worked during that time. It can't just be something I throw together in 15 minutes and I have just been too busy to do it so hopefully next week I will work on that and the world will finally know the good news we have been praying for, for so long! Stay tuned for that and that is why I haven't put anything on social media.

As far as this pregnancy goes, Mom is large and in charge and I finally look pregnant. The baby is the size of a kiwi/peach, about 3 inches long and a 1/2  pound. So too big to stay down in my pelvis. It has raised up and outward as you can see from the pictures below.

I am feeling great! Not that I ever felt that bad during the entire 1st trimester. I don't know if I can attribute the glorious lack of symptoms to the acupuncture or just being different this pregnancy, but boy was it different. Different from all 4 times of being pregnant. I always felt very tired and so nauseous that I had to eat every 1-2 hours or I felt like I was going to throw up. I barely ever felt like that this time and the only thing that changed was the acupuncture so I would recommend trying it to anyone who does experience some bad symptoms. I of course dealt with the worry and anxiety of all the trials we have endured over the past 9 weeks and just praying that this baby would live. But other than that we have been pretty good with the occasional moody/grumpiness from the hormones changing. So hopefully we are smooth sailing and in the sweet time of pregnancy for the next 20ish weeks.

We had a great trip to the Bahamas and it was very relaxing! Lots of time in the pool and on the beach, with some good food and early bedtimes for everyone. We had lots of fun! I will do a whole blog post recapping our trip but here are a few where you can start to see the belly popping out.

I hope you all had a great 4th of July! We sure did! Talk to you all soon! XOXO

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 12 WEEK UPDATE

Hey guys! So I am still at the doctor doing my blog post since I’ve been here almost 3 hours. And I know once I get home I’m going to be busy finishing packing for our Bahamas trip tomorrow and probably wouldn’t get around to it. So I am happy to report I have made it past the 12 week mark and survived going in the dreaded ultrasound room where the past 2 times there has been no heartbeat.
In all honesty I was super anxious when I walked into that dark room, so I said some quick prayers, recited some bible verses over and over in my head and as soon as she put the probe on my belly, we saw a jump so I was able to breathe.  The ultrasound lady Gail was very thorough which I really appreciated. I had never had an ultrasound that was that in-depth in my life. She measured the head, showed us the brain and how there was good separation in the craniums, measured the nose bridge made sure all the organs were there, literally checked every part of the body. It probably took a good 15-20 minutes. Everything looked great and Baby had a heart rate of 165 which was good and was measuring at 12 weeks and 2 days and that is exactly where I am.

After the ultrasound I met with nurses to go over financial stuff and after talking to one of the ladies for a few minutes, it turns out she was at the same fertility place as me and just found out yesterday there was no heartbeat and she was getting a D&C tomorrow. It sounded all too familiar and I felt so bad for her. We talked for a little while about what to expect and things she could do differently when she tried again so hopefully I comforted her a little bit during her time of hopelessness. Someone please remind me to get her email in a few weeks and reach out to see how she is doing. That definitely is an upside to all this I have gone through. I am able to help others and say don't give up, I am proof that when God's timing is perfect it CAN work!

So after that I met with Dr. Garcia and he did a routine exam and we talked about what meds I should be off of now and what I should be on. I have officially stopped my crinone and stopped my heparin yesterday. I am going back on a baby aspirin to help with the blood clotting issues. So now we just wait and pray all continues well and that this belly gets bigger by the day! I actually am getting fairly large! I haven't done a belly pic yet and will do one soon, but when we get back from the bahamas I will do a post with some side profile shots so you can see whats happening. It looks huge in a bathing suit. I love having a belly though and will gladly welcome it as soon as I can get it!

Oh I also forgot to tell you that the blood hemorrhage had definitely disappeared and she checked to see if I had placenta previa which I did with Blakely and she said nope so honestly the ultrasound was just too good to be true. I need to stop worrying and being anxious because I know God has got this under control and I have been a very stubborn child lately! I prayed before my 10 week ultrasound if things were going to end well for me, could he make it a perfect ultrasound and even make the blood go away so I would have a sign! Well of course he did just that and I still was anxious this past week. I did ask for forgiveness because this type A control freak is being hit with signs in the face and I keep saying I need more. How rude. I had an image of Delainey saying Mom will you come to my swim meet and I told her yes I promise I will be there and then she said I don't believe you I need something more, so I gave her my phone (we all know how much mom loves her phone and can't be without it) and said I will be there shortly and she still didn't believe me, I said here take my wallet and all my money if mom doesn't show up and she still was hesitant to believe I was coming. Thats how I think God felt, like sheesh Jamie what do you want from me to believe it will be ok LOL. Dang stubborn kids. Haha luckily he is a very patient God!

So we are off tomorrow on a little 4 night family vacation to the Bahamas! No big plans or anything wild. David and Delainey are going to swim with the dolphins, but just planning on relaxing, swimming at the pool and the beach and spending some quality time together. I will be posting on Instagram if you want to follow along with our weekend. Otherwise I will be back next week with an infertility update and I'll post some stomach shots to show the growth we have had over the past 12 weeks. I hit the 2nd trimester on Monday!! Woohoo! Thank you all so much for your prayers to get us to this point and I will gladly take them until the day this baby is born! I hope you all have a great weekend! XOXO

(IN)FERTILITY FRIDAY - 11 WEEEK UPDATE

So far we are still good friends! I had an ultrasound on Tuesday at a Storks View which is just an ultrasound place you can go and pay money at it and see your baby whenever. The baby was measuring at 11 weeks and 5 days and had a heartbeat of 168 so things were looking good. This week and the last make me a little nervous because I am coming off of my meds. They say the placenta kicks in between 9-12 weeks. It scares me to stop the meds before 12 weeks so we are slowly tapering off of them. On Monday I had my last progesterone shot and this week I have only been taking 1 crinone a day which is a progesterone too. So I went from 2 crinones and a shot to 1 crinone and shot, now to just 1 crinone. My last of them is on Monday. I also am supposed to stop the Heparin at 12 weeks too which is Monday. So hopefully all goes well with that and we will be smooth sailing for the next 28 weeks. I go to see my real OB this Wednesday so if that ultrasound looks good, I will finally feel confident to say I am having a baby! The poor ultrasound lady there has this tiny dark room and both times I have walked in in the past year their has been no heartbeat so it gives me a little anxiety to walk into her office. But we are just praying all will go well!

We have had an eventful week at my nephew Caleb was born on Monday to my sister-in-law. He is so cute and I got to be at the hospital on Monday to witness it all! So we finally have some boys invading the Jacksonville cousins. Next up is baby Rush (my sisters baby) due next month! Woohoo! I hope you all have a great weekend and I will keep you posted on how Wednesday goes. We are going on a family trip to the Bahamas on Thursday so I will let you know on Wednesday night! XOXO